満月 ♡
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⠀ ` · . 𐙚 sweet moon . sundarta ⸺ what am i supposed to do, when i love someone as much as the ocean loves the moon?
happy full moon in aries!! ꒰ ⸝⸝› ̫ ‹⸝⸝ ꒱ emotional energy is at an all time high with the super moon as well ~~
it's a great day for casting spells, doing burn rituals, and cleansing. it'll be a very powerful next couple of days actually. till sunday! it's yume first little event as a witch. truth be told, i've always felt super connected to spiritual things. i delved into tarot yearsss ago. probably as early as 2018. but i didn't own a deck till 2020 or 2021. i don't remember. the timeframe's fuzzy. i only recall this information due to youtube history being a thing.. ꒰｡ › ·̮ ‹ ｡꒱
anyway, only this month did yume finally admit to being a witch. yume's been detaching from labels, so she hasn't really delved into other known labels such as pagan, and others. yume just knows she's a self proclaimed love witch. because that's what yume has been focusing on lately. love is such a beautiful thing after all. yume enjoys divination, tarot, spells, and astrology. such a neat combo.
yume started her day off with a burning ritual which felt so right. in the past, yume would feel a little frighten by the fire. because i use matches. last time i used a lighter, i got a blister which wasn't fun. its also because i did burn said finger.. TT anyway anyway, i use matches now to avoid that. they're a lot easier to use! but they're small matches so they burn pretty quickly. thankfully i act quickly to put them out before i burn myself.
i swear the fire could sense my fear of it before. but spells and rituals later, i think i've gotten a lot better about not being afraid of fire! which is good, because on my birth chart, i hone a lot of fire! so i should be using that to my advantage. today's burning ritual went super well! the matches and the fire cooperated ~
yume hopes that everyone spend the next couple of days letting go of things that no longer serve them. i know i did/am.
that reminds yume, she's been dealing with quite the frisky family member... TT they're so troublesome. anytime i try to have a conversation with them, they turn it into an argument. its so tiring and draining. lately, yume's noticed that they've been isolating themselves. now, this person does have unresolved mental issues which could definitely lead to self isolation. but yume wonders if the trash is taking itself out. we used to talk more often, but now we hardly talk.
it is a blessing, because as yume said, they are an energy vampire. and yume just cannot converse with someone who gets easily offend at every single thing! even when yume's talking about her own experiences, they always have to make it about themselves through projection and then make an argument. like girlie, i'm TIRED.
i guess the universe said "enough" too, because they have been removed out of my life significantly despite us living in the same house. sorry— yume feels like pulling some cards.
the five of pentacles? yikes. a card with such a poor energy that tells us to let go of poor things that no longer serve us. then the queen of wands, she has a beautiful energy; a flourishing one at that! to get there, i think i'm going to have to stop hoping that a connection with this relative will work out. because it won't and them coming along the journey is just not in the cards.
yume often falls victim to seeing people in a light that they don't even bear. yume's gotten better at that, but when it comes to family, it's still a difficult quiz to pass. it's normal to want a connection with family, but yume's family is toxic and abusive. so she can't get caught up on beating a dead horse. is that the right analogy? yes. it something yume is still learning to accept. it's hard because yume's been programmed to put up with such nasty energy and behaviour her entire life. telling herself that she doesn't have to put up with it, isn't one that can be learned over night. but yume will get there some day soon.
it'll be much easier once yume moves away. she needs the separation. and there are no exceptions that come with this.
on another note, the sun is so gorgeous today! it always is, but something feels a little different today.
today's blogpost feels emotionally heavy though. but yume will prepare her heart for great things. cos one day, soon, yume will look back at these posts and be proud that she saw things through.
blessed be, everypyon ~ 🐇
